OVERWHELMED

Since the middle of october I have been a 24/7 care-giver to my wife who is in stage 4 lung and brain cancer.
Watching her digress from a vibrant, feisty, sensitive, and compassionate person filled,  with compassion for every one. She has become an invalid who is unable to walk, unable to understand the most basic daily normal-life events, very similar to an Alzheimer’s patient. Some days are better than others, and some days are worse than I just described. We are both frustrated and angry as to why life has to take us down this road.
She has been my soul-mate for 24 years and we have been through hell more times than I care to recount, but we have always emerged from those past excursions in a better and stronger frame of mind. This time, unfortunately there is no chance for a hopeful emergence. The only small ray of hope we have is that she will still be here, and cognizant for our 25th anniversary this coming July.

I WILL BE ON CANCER HAIATUS…actually it’s my wife

 I promise, I will back to bizness as usual, for whatever that’s worth, as soon as things (and us) can calm a bit. When we got the news it was like being hit by a cruise missle. You think it will never happen to you, but let me tell you, lifestyle doesn’t matter…..We are all at risk for cancer . Who knows, I may have it also, the only way we found about her tumors, yes, TUMORS; THREE OF THOSE LITTLE BASTARDS, adenocarcinoma, in her brain causing her to have seizures. It’s been a whirlwind the last couple of weeks. I almost forgot to mention the BIG one on her left lung. Y’all send us some good vibes we can use all we can get. Since neither of are employed we have no insurance , and very few dollars. We are hoping and SHE is doing the praying, that we can get emergency medicaid for survival.